Contradictory Ramblings Version 2.0

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else

I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

Fade to Black - Metallica

Contradictory Ramblings [Version 3.0]

"Walking around in circles... seeking a place to call my own"

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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Mhmmmm the mashed potato with cajun sauce @ Popeye’s is heavenly. Was having it for the 2nd time in my life last Sunday, at Changi Airport T3. The 1st time was a while back at T1. It’s a shame that the only Popeye’s outlet I know of is so far away. If only they would open a franchise or something in town area. The mashed potato beats the current KFC’s whipped potato hands down (though I still prefer the KFC’s whipped potato from the past – just go to M’sia and have KFC there, u’ll know what I mean). And the chicken. Popeye’s fried chicken, available in spicy & mild, totally pwns KFC’s too imo. It’s really juicy and totally edible w/o chili or ketchup. Not to mention, itz bigger than the KFC one. Slightly more expensive though, the 2 pc meal, but totally worth if if u ask me.

Come to think of it… KFC’s standard hath dropped over the years. The pieces of chicken shrunk tremendously & is no longer that yummy, the whipped potato is not longer that great and the coleslaw kinda sux. Thatz one problem with 1 fast food chain dominating the market. KFC’s like the only one out there that’s purely fried chicken. Should there be other competitors & more choices for the consumer, am sure they would try much harder to retain their customers, resulting in yummier food. Rite now, we don’t have much of a choice but to eat and whine about it. *sigh* Where in the world did Texas Chicken disappear to?

Anyway, will be leaving for Genting tonite. 3D 2N. Will be back on Sat nite. Swear that I’m gonna eat tubs of KFC whipped potato over there – and if possible do a takeaway of at least 2 tubs back to Singapore for supper on Sat & breakfast on Sun.

Hmm… to be frank, am kinda skeptical about this trip. Not too sure if I’ll be enjoying it as much as I should. Itz not the place… more of the company. Gahhh, don’t really wish to talk bad about my friends… but there’s this guy whom I foresee is gonna be a slight wet blanket. He just isn’t the “sporting” kinda person – not keen on this, not keen on that. It has already begun before we even left. Earlier, a colleague mentioned that the swimming pool @ First World Hotel, where we’ll be staying, is worth going due to the slides… etc. So I SMSed the 2 fella who will be going with me, and told them to bring our swimsuit. One is cool about it. The other, just told me nah… not keen. So does that mean we gonna skip that? I really hope not. Coz am hoping to squeeze in a tan as well.

Previously the 2 did mention though, that they’ll be going to the casino to take a look @ things, though they won’t be gambling. I got a feeling that hours will be spent there… hmm hopefully they’ll go in the day – so I can indulge in some other activities while they are in there. Am totally like uninterested in the casino. I mean… why stand around and just look when u aren’t playing? Lolx. Wonder if there’s a spa there. It’ll be great to go get a massage, facial or maybe even my nails or hair done while they decompose in there. /shrugx. I know I shouldn’t be too pessimistic. I just hope everything will work out good. Will bring along the novel I’m reading and perhaps one of the small x-stitch pieces I’m working on along. Err… I think they’ll allow a sewing needle thru’ the customs, won’t they? =S

Am so gonna be suffering from WoW deprivation for the nxt few days. Gahhhh!! But itz pretty pointless to bring a lappy along and play WoW while on holiday so am not gonna do it. Not that I’ve got a lappy to begin with lolx. Wonder if Triple Moons are gonna attempt Kara this Sat with pugging an MT – the last time I asked a few of them, they all said, postpone to Sun. I did suggest that for this weekend, my bro go MT (since he’s sufficient geared to progress to Gruul’s anyway) and get Sael to be the OT or something… but he didn’t like the idea of that – his reason being droods not having block or parries like warriors do. Grrr they do have the higher dodge rate and much higher hp to make up for it though. His hp is like almost 15k unbuffed in dire bear while mine’s only 13k unbuffed. And that is coz I’m full-epiced (minus the blue gun) and he isn’t. Yeah Netherspite dropped the shoulders last Sat.

Though am still lacking the shield from Nightbane in Kara, am gonna go ahead and organize Gruul’s for the next weekend. With much much luck, I’ll get the shield from Gruul’s instead (though the chances are slim coz itz a 25-man raid and my roles are legendarily… low). 10th May 2008. Have set it on the guild calendar. Hopefully the response will be good. It’s already been so long since we 1st done Kara, progress has to be made somehow. There is still SSC, ZA… blah blah blah ahead of us. Once we embark on Gruul’s on the 10th, Kara will be officially relegated to be on farm. Gotta push Aina to be sufficiently geared for heroics & Kara as well. Heh, she’s no longer in STDs. She’s now in Bru’s guild Not Your Average Noob (NYAB). Nice tabard they have, I gotta say ^-^

Yep, Aina is staying on at Barthilas, at least in the meantime. I know, that’ll mean I’m giving up the opportunity for swifter progress on Dreadmaul… I just don’t wanna part her from Eru in the meantime. Not till I manage to raise another lvl 70 on Barth once Aina is settled. Still a long way to go for that. Am still unsure which toon to raise after Aina – there’s Tinkle the priest (lv 25), Kia the hunter (lv 25) & Rhav the drood (lv 11). Oh yeah… there’s Lola the pally (lv 19) too, but frankly she’s like the last on my list, though she has the jewelcrafting profession I need badly. TM needs another high lvl JC aside frm Head. Gahhh!! So many toons so little time!! Rofl. Not to mention, I gotta spare like 1hr or so each day on Asrial the priest (lv 8) on Dreadmaul. Just rolled her yesterday, just to play with Black & AoD. Got an invite into their new guild over there… and was pretty stunned to see Zxr too.

Hahah… wonder how many 70s will I manage to raise before WOLK comes out. Hmm… when will WOLK ever even release in the 1st place? Damnit. Talking of all that really makes me feel like going home now to WoW.

Shady self-destructed @ 00:26

Friday, April 25, 2008

Stuck between a rock & a hard place again.

Returned a missed call from AoD earlier, that itself came as a surprise coz I was expecting him to SMS instead, and was asked whether I wanna transfer my rogue over to Dreadmaul. *sigh* It sux when things had to turn out this way. He & black were gonna reform a guild, aiming for future raids. Back then, I did tell them, if they wanted, they could have my rogue – though my warrior isn’t really progressing, I still do have some form of commitment to TM. Then came the bad news… a few days later, black decided that he wanted to transfer out of Barthilas. Arrgghhh was really looking forward to the formation of a new guild coz it’ll be kinda “military style”. On one hand it’ll mean there’s less talk, less fun as compared to TM. On the other hand, it’ll mean progress. But arrggghhh they are both gone now. T.T

I won’t deny that the offer to transfer is a tempting one… much more tempting than rolling a totally new toon & starting from lvl 1 all over again, this time without a 70 to backup with funding. Did it the hard way with Eru but when it came to Aina, it was sooooo much easier. Anyway, I can’t play 2 toons. As Eru is the one who has a slot in TM, frankly, Aina is gonna be pretty useless unless there’s gonna be a team 2, and provided that team 2 has a different raid time. Besides, Eru is geared for her current state (the guild is still stuck at Kara *sigh*) so I don’t have to spend that much time on her anymore. Itz now Aina who has to gear up to start on heroics then Kara. She hit 69 last nite. So rightfully I shld be able to manage my time should I bring my rogue over. Like… concentrate on Aina, and logon Eru only for the weekend raids or the occasional heroic.

So whatz the problem?

Problem is… Aina was designated to be my eventual $-making toon. She will be the one I’ll use for farming (if I ever get to doing it with my busy schedule); she’ll be the one who’s gonna “pay” for my warrior’s repairs… and she’s the one who’s gonna get the primals I need for blacksmithing. Not to mention, she'll be the leatherworker who's gonna sponsor my warrior's leg enchants. Granted that I can always do the few dailies I can solo each day and that w/o the rogue, my warrior won’t go broke… but gahh it’ll be messing up my plans if u get what I mean. Besides itz gonna be hell for Aina to get the 5k+ for the epic flight mount w/o Eru. Farming would be sweet over at Dreadmaul due to having less competitors, but that’ll mean having a smaller market to sell the stuff to.

The main factor – Dreadmaul is a new server, with a much lower population than Barth. Am already having problems find PUGs for instances on Barth. Can’t imagine how much worse is it gonna be over there. Granted that I’ve got a guild ready & waiting for me. But there’s really no guarantee that I’ll be included in all of their runs. What if I don’t get a Kara spot? PUGs is a risk. Fine, I don’t mind taking that risk. What I mind is, spending hours doing nothing significant while forming a party to enter any instance. There’s still a long way to go b4 Aina is ready for Karazhan. There are the lvl 70 instances, the PvP and then finally, the heroics. Unless AoD & black are willing to run me thru’ stuff to get geared, I forsee itz gonna be hell of a problem trying to find a PUG tank & healer for an instance run.

Face it. Most tanks & healers are in guilds. In guilds, there’ll be guildies who want to run instances, and the guildies will always be the 1st choice. How do I know that for sure? Well… just look @ Eru. Ever since she hit 70, she never went anywhere in a full PUG. I’ll LFM on my guild chat… only when there’s a spare spot, then we get random players. The LFM channels are forever flooded with dpsers. So guess Aina's gonna suffer the same fate.

Transferring Eru over is not an option at all. I’m the MT of TM. Why would I wanna go over to a guild where I’ll only have OT status? Both black & AoD are already tanks rofl. They need other tanks as “spares”, but not “main raiders”. I’d rather take my chances with the non-progressing TM (though itz sorely testing my patience) and see how things go. Even if I were to leave TM eventually, well, it’ll be for another guild on Barth, not Dread.

Gahhh… only got till end of this week to make up my mind, before the free Transfer window closes. USD25 is a ridiculous price to pay afterwhich. So itz either this week, or never. Guess I’m just gonna roll a toon on Dread when I get home later, have a discussion with AoD & black and take tml to make up my mind. The temptation is about 75% rite now though ^-^

Shady self-destructed @ 15:34

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Tired. Angry. Frustrated.

Those are the 3 words that describe me perfectly rite now. Took me shitload of willpower to drag myself up and not take an MC from wrk this morning. Main reasons I gave myself are: there’s a completion tml, and I betta be here today in case someone else makes it even more confusing & I’ve taken an MC at the start of this month already - am trying to limit myself by not taking too many MCs coz frankly, am not too sure how the company would react to it. Heh so better to save the MCs for “a rainy day” instead of wasting them.

Tired – coz I was up WoWing till past 4am last nite. Not that it was done on purpose. The instance began at 10+… it reset halfway, party went back after reset, and it simply dragged on from there. Wipe after wipe, blunder after blunder, screw up after screw up. The best part is... after all that shit, we didn't manage a full clear. I pulled the plug when I saw the clock. That leads to my next emotion.

Angry. Itz 58g ++ repair for me last nite, in Heroic Magister’s Terrace… and the fcking tanking trinket didn’t drop. In fact, I pretty much had no loot for the entire instance, save for winning the greed roll on a lousy little green. Thatz my luck in WoW, nothing different frm my luck irl. Oh yeah… there were many green drops… but they all went to the clothies who somehow had good rolls. Yep, that contributed to my anger too. But that ain’t the main reason y I’m angry. The main reason y I’m so pissed is coz… much of those repair fee could be saved! The healer was just a fcking pansy. Trust me, I would have given him the boot a damn long time ago if I didn't know him irl.

Remember the paladin I mentioned a couple of posts back? Yeah… itz the same full-of-shit fella. This time on his priest. He didn’t manage to keep my hp up… and he ran outta mana during the 2nd boss fight – the main reason y we kept wiping our assess off. OOM. Hello?! Ever heard of mana potions? I lost my patience, I mentioned that. He said he potted… at 60% mana. Bullshit. I was looking @ his fcking mana bar and it dropped all the way till 2k before he took a small pot. Even after my bro innervated him, he ran outta mana. What kind of healer are u, if u require a feral drood to shift out to help off-heal just to keep the tank’s hp out of the “dangerous zone”? And even after the innervate... he oomed. Excuses like the potion's cooldown... etc. were all thrown out. Itz like, oei fuck u manx. Think I dunno anything about the pot's cooldown? My point is why the fuck didn't u pot earlier?! 1.8k heals my ass!! With that kinda gear... the problem doesn't lie with the toon, but the player.

What ticked me off even more is the excuses he gave for not potting – that he doesn’t have $ to and he was saving up for his epic flight mount. Shit after shit. A clothie’s repair is significantly lower than a plate wearer for a reason – so that he can spend the amt he didn’t spend on repairs on POTS from the auction house!!! Ffs. His repair was 21g. Mine came up to more than twice the amount. See my point now? The difference in repairs are sufficient to buy at least 3 stacks of super mana potions manx. And $ for epic flight mount /spit. He would have gotten his epic flight mount by now if he didn’t spend all that Gs respeccing his faggot paladin for Kara every single weekend just coz he wants the best of 2 worlds (healing & tank gear).

Frustrated. The frustration mainly stems from a dilemma – should I simply be blunt & tell that asshole off and risk ruining the friendship? On one hand, itz much of a risk… coz friendship is more impt than WoW gold… on the other hand, do I want such a loser as a friend? This kinda childish, selfish attitude in game reflects a person irl. Face it… assholes online are assholes offline… itz in them. Folks may argue that itz possible to fake an identity and take on an entire new persona with the Internet. I say bullshit to that idea. One can never hide their true selves. The temptation to simply lash out @ him grows by the day I tell you. Everytime he talks about farming (hello… u have a lvl 70 huntard – perfect farming toon, so whatz the complaint?), dailies and repair fee… it pisses the shit outta me.

Suddenly… the invitation for me to move to another server, sounds very alluring. I’ll never get away from the leech, if I don’t get outta Barthilas.

Shady self-destructed @ 10:01

Monday, April 21, 2008

Itz weird how certain things from the past never seem to be forgotten. Even 2 decades later. As I was sitting back, staring @ the MS Word document that I was in the midst of formatting, my mind started to drift. Initially, I was thinking of the upcoming Genting trip.

Itz next week… looking forward to it. Am leaving on Wed nite & shld get back by Sat nite. Despite being forced to miss Kara next Sat (hopefully I can get in on the Sun’s continuation run), think itz gonna be a good break. Am looking forward to once again sit on the Space Shot, getting a full body massage… and most of all… eating KFC whipped potatao!!! Hahah ya ~ u may think “wtf… there’s KFC in Singapore rite?”. Well, trust me. If things stayed the way they were since the last time I went to M’sia, the KFC whipped potato gravy over there is simply heavenly. So different from they one they using in Singapore now. Hmm… actually, the one in Singapore used to taste that way. A very very long time ago. Gawd knows why they changed it. Wonder if anyone else actually even realizes the difference? Anyway… am so gonna eat at least 2 large whipped potato per day ^-^

Uhmm… anyway that isn’t what I wanted to blog about. Itz about things that never leave ur mind. Rofl. Thinking of going to Genting somehow reminded me of going places with my parents when I was a kid. Being from an average family, I never had to luxury to visit faraway places. Itz always to M’sia or to chalets during the skool holidays. I intend to change that now that I’m able to make my own decisions & own money (a pittance unfortunately). Anyway in particular, I suddenly recalled a trip to Cameron Highlands. That was definitely in my pri skool days. How old was I exactly, I can’t remember. F**k I dun even remember anything much except that I lost my little stuffed horse there.

It was an ugly thing. Green fabric with white polka-dots. Gahhh I can’t even remember how exactly it looked like, just a vague image of it. All I could remember is… I was upset when I lost it. *sigh* And that brings to mind even more toys from the past. Old ang, Pencily, Happ, Sadd… etc. Yeah I still got a couple of them lying ard somewhere in my cartons… but the majority of them are long gone. Wish I didn’t lose them though. Wish I still had them. They would have had a place of honor in my room once I get my cartons unpacked (yes still unpacked since last year). But ah well… never had the power to change the past.

Yeah… itz so weird how the mind manages to remember things frm such a long time ago.

Shady self-destructed @ 16:46

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I knew this day was gonna come… just didn’t expect it to come so soon. I fee like quitting WoW. Yeah amazing huh? Considering that it wasn’t too long ago that I was so positive about the weekly Karazhan raids. Hmm… y the sudden desire, I dunno. Part of it might be coz I started playing Sims 2 again recently. Another part of it, probably the largest driving factor, is coz I’ve been “wasting time” on WoW the past few weeks.

My warrior is pretty much dormant these days… I only use her on weekends for raids. Am spending like the rest of my time on my rogue. Lvl 67 now. Guess it’s the difficulty to find a PUG for instances that’s tiring me. Imagine… I usually have to wait like 2-3hrs before I can find a full party into an instance. And that isn’t a guarantee that the run will be completed, or if the item I’m eyeing for will drop, or even if I’ll win the roll when it does. It’s ironic. When I play the warrior, I’m always looking for healers… when I play the rogue, my party is lack of a tank. Doesn’t help that my bro & the friend I usually game with comes home late – at times so late that there isn’t a point doing heroics till it resets. When instance runs start late, they end late & I’ll end up sleeping very little. Little sleep is not the problem. The problem is sacrificing sleep for absolutely nothing *sigh*

Guess what sums it up is – lack of progress.

Imagine, the guild has been doing Kara since like what… Feb? And till now, 2 mths later, we still don’t have a regular team of raiders. Every single week we gotta end up LFM & the process itself is highly annoying (not to mention, time consuming). I dunno if itz our luck or what… we’ll always end up with idiots leaving the party halfway… idiots that screw up or basically ppl who do not fucking listen! Oh yeah, we always manage to clear the 1st few bosses of Kara every week. Then when it comes to doing NB, NS & Prince… the raid team dies. Gahhh!! If I were to progress, I need NB & NS!! Itz damn annoying that u spend the entire Sat afternoon on bosses u don’t need and after all that… the run is called coz everyone else doesn’t have the balls or determination to continue. Wipe once, wipe twice... wants to move on to something else just coz they dun need the loot. Well ~ two can play that game. I don’t need loot frm any other bosses so if we wipe, I’ll just move-on ehx? Itz a give & take thingy manx. I just got tired of always giving… and getting nothing back in return.

I know, I know. Have lamented about this before. *sigh* But nothing changes since the last rant so the complains continue. I know that itz up to me to change things… I can always join another guild, a raid guild. Gahhh itz the mind vs heart matter again. Lolx, didn’t expect that I’ll be caught in such a dilemma even in a game. Itz either sticking with my current guild, enjoying their company & not progress forever (heart), or move on to somewhere else, hate the “military style” & move on to Gruul’s, ZA, SSC, TK… etc. A fellow player AoD is already asking if I’d help him reform a guild, coz his isn’t progressing as well. Hmm… tempting. Thing is, will I settle for simply being an OT?

Best option? /wowquit. lol

Shady self-destructed @ 10:42

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Mind games. Constructive or destructive?

Happened to browse thru’ a TNP article about the break-up of 2 local celebs – though frankly, I dun even know who the girl is… nvr heard of her, nvr seen her rofl. Anyway, that ain’t the point. Though no details were given about the break-up, the article suggested it may be coz the guy is “too nice” to her. Thatz like… duh, wtf? The girl was also quoted as saying something like… the guy is good, doesn’t play mind games, but girls like some excitement… blah blah blah.

My instant thought: WTH, this girl’s gotta grow up manx. Mentally, that is. Not physically. At the age of 23, am sure her body hath alredi attained maturity.

That statement really reminds me of some immature teenager. Yeah I remember my own teenage years. Back then itz like… turmoil is good coz turmoil keeps things interesting. Frankly I still do feel that way rite now ~ life is boring if itz just monotonous… but turmoil when it comes to relationships? Hell, no thanx. If I want things “happening” in my Life, I’d rather go take up an extreme sport or do something insane (yet harmless). Nothing fucks up a person’s life more than a messed up relationship.

I really envy those “old couples” who have been together for years… been together so long that well, they are like extensions of each other. Haha, yeah I’ve got a few friends who are in those kinda relationships. Itz just lovely, don’t u think? Having someone to come home to @ the end of a tiring workday, having companionship in whatever u do… etc. Gah!! Maybe I’m getting soft over the years. I think I’m goddamnted getting soft… haha and well, at least my Life now ain’t too bad. I do have my guildies to go home to after a long day at wrk ^-^

Now to break outta monotony by trying something... err... new. ROFL

Shady self-destructed @ 11:50

Monday, April 07, 2008

Karazhan 05.04.2008

Well... the weekend run didn't proceed as smoothly as I thought it would. It still ended up being dragged over to the 2nd day. Bosses down the 1st: Midnight & Attunment, Moroes, Maiden, Opera (R&J), Curator and Aran. 2nd day: Illhoof, Netherspite & Prince. Part of the reason, I suppose, is that the raid started later than it was planned for and I had to call it off coz I had to leave for a movie with me friends.

The 1st delay was due to punctuality… people logging on their mains late; doing something on their alts; being in another instance when invites were sent out… etc. That is something that needs to be rectified in future coz itz wasting the time of those who actually made the effort to login punctually. Slightly more than ½ hr was burnt there… so u can imagine the delay.

2nd delay. One of the healers scheduled for the raid got pwned by his wife & had to settle his personal matters instead. *sigh* Guess there’s nothing much I can say about that except – shit happens. Real life stuff has to take priority over gaming afterall. Searching for a replacement healer took another 30min or longer I guess.

After all the shit was settled… I think it was 4:30pm ST or later that we actually managed to get the run going. 1hr 30min gone just like that. Frankly, I could have spent that time doing so much more… but ah well, until we start laying down the rules (eg. if ur late, ur spot goes to another), guess that’s gonna continue every weekend.

Another reason why we failed to complete is coz alot of time is wasted on deaths & wipes. The bosses all went down the 1st try except for Aran [Aran took us 3 tries coz for the 1st 2, Blizz lagged like crazy, resulting in the deaths of like half the raid team after the 1st arcane explosion - duh]. Reason for deaths? Players not doing what's required of them. When a mob is marked for cc, ffs pls cc them @ the second tank pulls aggro. *sigh* That usually ends up with one of the healers dead... for this run, it was the priest who whinned like crazy after that - but am not gonna go into it rite now... will do so later on in the post or another day. Of coz there are the usual mistakes - dpser attacking a cc-ed mob... etc.

On the overall, well, I should admit that it went on quite well despite the duration of it. Imagine, we spent like 5.5hrs on Sat and another 4hrs on Sun. A total of almost 10hrs in Karazhan. Jeez. Who the fuck takes that freaking long?! I am not aiming for a 4hr clear, like some of the better guilds are able to do... but is it that difficult to ask for a 6hr Karazhan? At this rate things are going, I daresay all my weekends are gonna be burnt on WoW. And most imptly, how are we gonna progress to further raids when we are stuck @ Kara for the entire weekend? Lolx. Ideally it should be Kara on Sat, then Gruul's on Sun (when we are geared for it).

Nightbane was a failure. We tried 3x, wiped 3x. It could be done imo, if players just keep out of the fire on the ground. Taking precious heals away from the tank for this boss is deadly - NB's crushing blow hits me for like 7k dmg and I only have 14k hp after buffs. Thing is, I believe we could have downed Nightbane eventually. It's players who refuse to try... and that boils down to attitude again. 3 wipes and they gave up with their tails tucked between their legs. *sigh* Times like this makes me wonder if I should seek out a better guild instead. Face it. Nightbane drops my chestpiece & shield. Without those 2 items, I'm gonna be stuck on Karazhan forever. Netherspite was easy, despite wiping 3x (well, its our 1st try so thatz kinda expected ~ 2nd wipe was totally my fault coz I tanked him @ the wrong part of the room causing the beams to intersect kek)... it's a shame that my shoulders didn't drop.

But guess this weekend's run was a pretty fruitful one for me. Finally obtained my Battlescar Boots from chess event & my T4 helm from Prince (thanx to my bro who actually passed on the item to let me have it 1st).

The Priest/Paladin

*sigh* Everyone's patience has a limit. Mine is no exception... and the only reason y I have yet to tell the person involved to f.o. is coz he's a real life friend... someone whom I've known for a pretty long while & has helped me with some real life issues w/o demanding anything in return. It's just that, online, as a gaming buddy... argghhh just put it this way, my tolerance is being sorely tested.

He whines about repair fees. 24g for this weekend's Kara run. He complained that he isnt' supposed to be pay that much as a clothie. Well... yes I agree, some deaths were totally un-necessary and it's not easy to farm for gold if you are a healer (as compared to the dps classes). I have the same problems too. Ever since I went prot, farming solo is pretty much no no. Thing is, u wanna complain... yesh, whine a little. Rant a little but stop going on and on about how u are unable to farm and unable to get ur gold. I can't do that either. So stfu. My repairs were much more expensive btw, as I am a fucking plate wearer!! kk, I admit. I've been taking the repairs from the guild bank... and so has he. So whatz the issue?

Then he goes on and on about how his priest no longer needs Kara & that he should really be bring his paladin there instead. Everytime a holy paladin item drops, he whines. Thing is... err did anyone say that he has to bring his priest in? Itz a case of slapping urself in the face and then complaining to ur mates that ur cheek is swollen... if u get what I mean. He says that his priest is needed to save the raid. I say c'mon manx, thatz thinking too freaking highly of urself. I don't deny that his priest is better compared to his pally... itz 1.8k heals vs 1.4k heals afterall. I did mention that I'd prefer him to be on his priest. But I never did fcking mention that he MUST bring his priest. Get my picture? Attempts to explain that to him... are just as fruitful as using an egg to smash a rock.

Another reason y I think he's making a big fuss about the holy paladin gear that drops in Kara. He has plans to respec his paladin to be a tank. So tell me... whatz the big deal if u lose rolls or don't get gear that u won't be using in future? Itz like D-U-H!!! Just let other pallys who are staying as a healadin for the rest of their WoW career have it coz they fucking need it more, goddamnit. He's such a fcking loot whore if u ask me. Healing gear - need, Tanking gear - need, dps gear - need. Need Need Need!! Wah piang ehx!! Frankly I thank the game for making his rolls lousy @ certain points of time... that other healadins get the healing gear instead. Itz justified manx. He's playing his toon based on another pally in the game... the other pally is someone with epic healing & prot gear... but pls bear in mind, the other guy... he's hardcore. Itz just like comparing a regular office boy to a managing director manx.

Last nite was the last straw. He whinned about his "lousy" tanking gear. I've seen his gear, it isn't that bad. It's suitable to tank lvl 70 normal instances. But guess what? He simply says it's insufficient to tank Kara. Itz like wth? You have yet begun to walk and already u want to sprint? Everyone begins from the bottom manx. I was in almost full blues when I 1st took on Kara. I spent tons of time doing quests, farming the lvl 70 normal instances then moving on to heroics for gear before I even begun Kara. And here he is... he expects to respec and immediately tank Kara. WTF? Linked him a guide on WoWwiki that he said he has read. I gone thru' the list myself... and it isn't as difficult as he claims it is. He complains that w/o going to heroics & Kara he won't get upgrades... I say he can settle for blue upgrades before moving on to better upgrades. He doesn't agree. That went on till even my bro got pissed off talking to him & called him a "pansy".

Then he went on complaining that me & my bro has countless of gear upgrades. As if he didn't? rofl. What he sees are the upgrades other get... and somehow he doesn't remember his own? And pls manx... we have upgrades on our tank gear coz we started collecting tank gear ever since we went to Outlands at lvl 60 ffs. He's been holy then and is still holy and he complains that his tanking gear sux? Jeesuzzzz Christ. Look @ my dps set if u wanna see sucky off-spec gear. Seesh... if he wants to go prot, then just do what others do. Gather prot gear instead of gathering holy gear!! Then he complains time is limited. Yeah manx... time is limited and the reason y he's in his current state is coz he's wasted time collecting stuff on the "wrong" spec while me & my bro have been focussing on one. Yes, a paladin is a hybrid class. It can fit various roles but they can only specialize in one. Get focus, and everything will be good. Just look @ my bro... he's a druid. A druid is a hybrid class too but I don't see him collecting moonkin gear when he's feral.

/spit Some ppl really need to grow up and stop reaching for the stars when u can't even reach the top of a coconut tree.

Shady self-destructed @ 16:31

Friday, April 04, 2008

Saw a woman using a pair of pink togs to hold a ciggie on my way back to the office frm lunch. Not, that woman ain’t a cleaner removing stubs frm the bin. She’s just walking along the pavement chit chatting with her friend – probably on her way back to her office. Definitely one of the weird Raffles Place denizens that I’ve been exposed to ever since the beginning of this year.

Yeah yeah u may say that the reason she uses a pair of tongs is coz she doesn’t want her fingers to be “tainted” by the smell of ciggies. Foolish girl. If u detest the smell of ciggies, don’t smoke. Simple. Ciggie smoke clings to everything ffs… holding ur stick with a pair of tongs doesn’t prevent u frm smelling like an ashtray eventually. It clings to ur hair, ur clothes, ur belongings… etc. How can I be so sure? Uhmm… I’m a smoker, duh.

Using a pair of tongs to hold a ciggie while puffing away… its equivalent to taking off ur pants & undies when u need to take a fart.

Ah well… it’s Raffles Place afterall. Shouldn't expect too much from the general public around here. I mean... where else do u find a packet of tissue paper on tables/chairs on every food court or hawker centre you go to? Where else do u find people with fake smiles plastered on their faces and speaking so goddamned unaturally to people whom they're lunching with? *sigh* I do like my current office... people there and all (aside from the level ?? raid boss), but the area itz located in totally blows.

/shrug TGIF I suppose. Am looking forward to tomorrow’s Kara run @ 3pm ST. Have got a raid team filled, for once. Enlisted the help of 2 healers & a hunter outside the guild with the rest of the team made up of guildies who have been pretty reliable based on the previous runs. I just hope I don’t screw up and let all of them down. Aiming for a fast clear w/o spilling over to the next day. And yes, aiming for a full clearance… Nightbane included. Will be tanking Nightbane for the 1st time, and Netherspite too. *grinx* Itz gonna be fun. Better get sufficient sleep tonite so I won’t be ½ fucked tomorrow…. then again… gg.

Shady self-destructed @ 17:28

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Instead of links... A tracking/reminder list of sorts - for PS2 gaming. Motivation NOT to start a new game of b4 completing one of the same genre that hath alredi begun.
In Progress

Dark Cloud 2
Guitar Hero 1, 2 & 80s
Kingdom Hearts
Kingdom Hearts II
Wild Arms 3

In Queue

Ar tonelico: Melody of Elemia
Atelier Iris: Eternal Mana
Atelier Iris II: The Azoth of Destiny
Atelier Iris III: Grand Phantasm
Dark Cloud
Devil May Cry 3: Dante's Awakening
Disgaea: Hour of Darkness
Final Fantasy VII - Dirge of Cereberus
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2
Final Fantasy XII
Grandia III
Harvest Moon - A Wonderful Life
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (8x)
Leisure Suit Larry: Magna Cum Laude
Persona 3
Rogue Galaxy
Rule of Rose
Shadow Hearts: Covenant
Shadow Hearts: From The New World
Shining Force Neo
Silent Hill 3
Silent Hill 4: The Room
Soul Cradle [Jap]
Stella Deus: The Gate of Eternity
Suikoden IV
Suikoen V
Tales of the Abyss
Wild Arms Alter Code: F
Valkyrie Profile: Silmeria

To-Check-Out / To-Get List

Ar tonelico II [?]
Arc The Lad: End of Darkness
Arc The Lad: Twilight of the Spirits
Breath of Fire: Dragon Quarter
Digimon World Data Squad
Disgaea 2: Cursed Memories
Dragon Quest V: Tenkuu no Hanayome
Dragon Quest VIII: Journey of the Cursed King
Drakengard
Drakengard 2
Dual Hearts
Elvandia Story [?]
Ephemeral Fantasia
Eternal Ring
Evergrace
Forever Kingdom
Full Metal Alchemist and the Broken Angel
Full Metal Alchemist 2: Curse of the Crimson Elixir
Full Metal Alchemist 3: Kami no Tsugu Shojo
Growlanser Generations
Growlanser: Heritage of War [?]
Growlanser IV: Precarious World [?]
Jade Cocoon 2
Magic Pengel: The Quest for Color
Magna Carta: Tears of Blood
Makai Kingdom: Chronicles of the Sacred Tome
MS Saga: A New Dawn
Musashi Samurai Legend
Odin Sphere
Okage: Shadow King
Orphen: Scion of Sorcery
Radiata Stories
RPG Maker 2 [?]
RPG Maker 3 [?]
Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Summoner
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga 2
Shin Megami Tensei: Nocturne
Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 3 [?]
Shining Force Exa
Shining Wind [?]
Shining Tears
Star Ocean: Till the End of Time
Steambot Chronicles
Summoner
Summoner 2
Tales of Destiny [?]
Tales of Destiny II [?]
Tales of Legendia
Tales of Rebirth [?]
Tales of Symphonia [?]
The Lord of The Rings, The Third Age
Tsugunai: Atonement
Unlimited Saga
Ys: The Ark of Napishtim
Wild Arms 5 [?]
Xenosaga Episode 1: Der Wille zer Macht
Xenosaga Episode 2: Jenseits von Gut und Bose
Xenosaga Episode 3: Also Sprach Zarathustra
.hack//G.U. Vol.1: Rebirth
.hack//G.U. Vol.2: Reminicise
.hack//G.U. Vol.3: Redemption
.hack//Infection Part 1
.hack//Mutation Part 2
.hack//Outbreak Part 3
.hack//Quarantine Part 4

Completed Games

Grandia II
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (1x)
Legend of Legia II
Shadow Hearts
Silent Hill 2
Suikoden III

Trash Bin

7 Sins
Urbz: Sims in The City
Grandia XTreme

Too Many Games... Too Little Time...

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