Contradictory Ramblings Version 2.0

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else

I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

Fade to Black - Metallica

Contradictory Ramblings [Version 3.0]

"Walking around in circles... seeking a place to call my own"

Welcome to My Life

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I wonder how much privacy is allowed to the staff here. Am aware that I’m taking a risk by even doing this – and yes, it is a risk coz for once I don’t have the desire to simply resign & look for another job. Am I settled down? I don’t know. For now am pretty contented with how things are over here… even though my pay is well, measly. I know they monitor the websites we surf – I gotten gamefaqs, tentonhammer & wowwiki blocked after the day I accessed them. I wonder if they can see what I’m seeing on my screen – I know such software exists. I wonder if they even have keyloggers. I know their silence doesn’t mean I’m getting away with it. I know I’m pushing my limits by even writing this blog entry now.

So why the fuck am I doing it?

I don’t know. I just have his weird little desire to type something… ramble on and on a little... etc. Itz a shame that I ain’t home right now. It’s a good time to actually write a short story or poem or whatever crap. Such moods don’t come often. And when they do, it’s always at the wrong time *sniggers*

Server maintenance later tonight. There goes my dailies for today. Managed to do quick one b4 I left for the office. 7g. Better than nothing. But there goes 50g… coz I won’t be able to get home b4 it goes down. Even if I do, it’ll be a feat to solo them. Such is the fate of a prot warrior. Dps is so amazingly low, that considerable dmg is taken b4 the mob goes down – dmg that I can’t simply just heal like pallys, droods or holy priests. Yeah. I’d say a prot warrior is even worse than a holy priest when farming is involved. Dps is equally low… but they can heal, we can’t. We have a longer downtime. That’s y I don’t farm for primals solo. It’s just a waste of energy & one wrong pull will mean a run from the gy + expensive armor repair.

Yes I’m talking about WoW again. /shrug can’t help that either. It’s like the only thing that I want to talk about in my life rite now. Especially now that TM is starting to raid Karazhan every weekend. We still haven’t have enough attuned & geared guildies to make it a full guild run – always having to waste time on LFM. It’s highly annoying, but am trying to put up with it. Just hopefully we’ll manage to recruit more soon. If not… there’s well, the option of guild merging with STDs or simply finding another guild. I don’t like those options though. I like TM & the current bunch of TMers. But I really don’t wish to stunt my own raid progression. Karazhan is not the end. There’s still Gruul’s , ZA, SSC… etc. And there’s WOTLK due to release sometime this year. So many things to do, so little time. Wonder if a few of us TMers can be considered 'hardcore' since we doing 1 instance almost every night. Only on weekends we probably skip the instance dailies... and the only reason y we do that is coz Kara saps up all our energy already. LoL

Don't tell me to get a Life. I have one. In the World of Warcraft with my fellow TMers. And I like it the way it is now. Sucks to be you if you don't comprehend it =)

Shady self-destructed @ 12:13

.: ME :.

I am the Alpha, I am the Omega. I am a Monster without a name.

I don't know where I'm going, and you need not know where I've been. I don't know why I'm embarking on this journey and I don't know what exactly I'm searching for. I don't need guidance. I'll know it when I find it - I'll make something up if I don't. Perhaps then, I'll depart to the realms beyond.

Till then, sit back & enjoy the tales I bring to you from my reality.

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Instead of links... A tracking/reminder list of sorts - for PS2 gaming. Motivation NOT to start a new game of b4 completing one of the same genre that hath alredi begun.
In Progress

Dark Cloud 2
Guitar Hero 1, 2 & 80s
Kingdom Hearts
Kingdom Hearts II
Wild Arms 3

In Queue

Ar tonelico: Melody of Elemia
Atelier Iris: Eternal Mana
Atelier Iris II: The Azoth of Destiny
Atelier Iris III: Grand Phantasm
Dark Cloud
Devil May Cry 3: Dante's Awakening
Disgaea: Hour of Darkness
Final Fantasy VII - Dirge of Cereberus
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2
Final Fantasy XII
Grandia III
Harvest Moon - A Wonderful Life
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (8x)
Leisure Suit Larry: Magna Cum Laude
Persona 3
Rogue Galaxy
Rule of Rose
Shadow Hearts: Covenant
Shadow Hearts: From The New World
Shining Force Neo
Silent Hill 3
Silent Hill 4: The Room
Soul Cradle [Jap]
Stella Deus: The Gate of Eternity
Suikoden IV
Suikoen V
Tales of the Abyss
Wild Arms Alter Code: F
Valkyrie Profile: Silmeria

To-Check-Out / To-Get List

Ar tonelico II [?]
Arc The Lad: End of Darkness
Arc The Lad: Twilight of the Spirits
Breath of Fire: Dragon Quarter
Digimon World Data Squad
Disgaea 2: Cursed Memories
Dragon Quest V: Tenkuu no Hanayome
Dragon Quest VIII: Journey of the Cursed King
Drakengard
Drakengard 2
Dual Hearts
Elvandia Story [?]
Ephemeral Fantasia
Eternal Ring
Evergrace
Forever Kingdom
Full Metal Alchemist and the Broken Angel
Full Metal Alchemist 2: Curse of the Crimson Elixir
Full Metal Alchemist 3: Kami no Tsugu Shojo
Growlanser Generations
Growlanser: Heritage of War [?]
Growlanser IV: Precarious World [?]
Jade Cocoon 2
Magic Pengel: The Quest for Color
Magna Carta: Tears of Blood
Makai Kingdom: Chronicles of the Sacred Tome
MS Saga: A New Dawn
Musashi Samurai Legend
Odin Sphere
Okage: Shadow King
Orphen: Scion of Sorcery
Radiata Stories
RPG Maker 2 [?]
RPG Maker 3 [?]
Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Summoner
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga 2
Shin Megami Tensei: Nocturne
Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 3 [?]
Shining Force Exa
Shining Wind [?]
Shining Tears
Star Ocean: Till the End of Time
Steambot Chronicles
Summoner
Summoner 2
Tales of Destiny [?]
Tales of Destiny II [?]
Tales of Legendia
Tales of Rebirth [?]
Tales of Symphonia [?]
The Lord of The Rings, The Third Age
Tsugunai: Atonement
Unlimited Saga
Ys: The Ark of Napishtim
Wild Arms 5 [?]
Xenosaga Episode 1: Der Wille zer Macht
Xenosaga Episode 2: Jenseits von Gut und Bose
Xenosaga Episode 3: Also Sprach Zarathustra
.hack//G.U. Vol.1: Rebirth
.hack//G.U. Vol.2: Reminicise
.hack//G.U. Vol.3: Redemption
.hack//Infection Part 1
.hack//Mutation Part 2
.hack//Outbreak Part 3
.hack//Quarantine Part 4

Completed Games

Grandia II
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (1x)
Legend of Legia II
Shadow Hearts
Silent Hill 2
Suikoden III

Trash Bin

7 Sins
Urbz: Sims in The City
Grandia XTreme

Too Many Games... Too Little Time...

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