Contradictory Ramblings Version 2.0

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else

I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

Fade to Black - Metallica

Contradictory Ramblings [Version 3.0]

"Walking around in circles... seeking a place to call my own"

Welcome to My Life

Monday, January 31, 2005

I wonder where did my 2 previous posts disappear to - actually the 2nd one is just a copy of the 1st which I posted when I realised that the original didn't appear. Ah well... /me shrugx. No idea if this one will appear or be converted into "lost thoughts & data". The one I just posted before this did appear though, just a stupid word - 'testing', that I deleted awhile after. Anyway, boredom hath taken over my life. Everyday is just back to waiting for something to happen. With no definite plans, with no real idea what to do, and no drive to improve my current situation. Basically I have no right to complain since I'm the one who got myself into a state as such. Ah well, whatever... it does beat rotting away at Cafe@100 - though am getting paid for that "rotting away". r/s wise, nothing much hath changed. Things are still pretty much the way they used to be... with Ben paying more attention to Jacky than me, spending time helping him with his bike, painting his house... etc. He doesn't exactly spend more time with him, he just puts him higher in the priority list, thatz all. Ah fuck it, perhaps he's really gay. Don't wanna expend too much energy on that aspect. Boredom is, by its own way, extremely energy-sapping already. More thought on that matter will make it worse.

Now there is this bastard honking his horn... so loud that I can hear it from where I am sitting, on the 15th floor. Good for him. Perhaps itz due to some other bastard blocking his way. Drivers in sg, there is much I can comment about... much, but pointless. With some luck, the horn will explode in his face. Don't really care if he's the cause of the problem... all I know that he is causing the noise pollution. It might not be really his fault. It might be that he's reacting the normal way a normal person would, by being put in that situation. Who ever said that life is fair?

Shady self-destructed @ 17:18

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Messed up - 2 words to perfectly describe my life at this current point of time =) Am running on a tight dateline. There are things to do, things to be done & things I am too lazy to do. *grumbles* I need a job... and I need it soon. Before the 1st appointment for the flat in March, I need to produce preferable a mth's payslip, or at least an appointment letter. Gah!!~! If not, there'll be a possiblity that HDB might reject the transaction & everything we've done so far will be considered void. Moolah is a huge headache factor now & it will continue to be a huge factor in dayz to come. Perhaps we rushed into things too fast... or perhaps Fate is offering me another chance to back out of this r/s. *sigh* Too many things just seem to happen at the same time. Everything is just so cramped up. I'll be applying for jobs starting today. Doesn't really matter what job I end up with, so as long itz something more than what Cafe@100 is paying me. The only problem is, 2 weeks from now, I gotta be "away frm work" for a bit. I don't know how to say this... I won't be saying it directly but I just hope my health don't suffer too much for that -.-" Yeah, of coz Ben doesn't really care. He said he'll be there for me... but he won't exactly be the one going thru' the procedure & of coz it won't hurt him a little bit. He ain't worried coz it ain't his health, his future at stake. u know, in my nxt life, I would wanna be a guy instead.

Shady self-destructed @ 12:39

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Itz always the ppl who are different that are persecuted. That are viewed as "monsters of society". That are alienated and discriminated against. Why is that so? Just finished a tiny marathon watching of "Witch Hunter Robin". That is one anime that ain't just for normal entertainment I suppose. It contains strong themes that reflect the pathetic society we live in. The hunting of witches who supposedly 'abuse' their power, endangering the lives of normal humans. What the authorities in the anime fail to recognise is the reason y the witches harm the normal humans in the 1st place. Granted that there is the minority that do it for $$, power, fun... etc. but the majority are just pushed over the line of tolerance. So tell me, is it fair to be condemned for using a power u don't ask for in the 1st place, against those who push u past the edge? Itz just basic animal instinct. Even a normally docile animal attacks when cornered. Generally, ppl don't harm another for no apparent reason. Yesh, I do believe that there is a certain amount of darkness in a person's heart... that a normal person does tend to obtain a certain amount of pleasure from another person's pain. But I do believe that, all basic life forms do not take the lives of another or hurt another unless needed. Itz all about self-protection or in order to protect something that is important enough. Violence ain't committed w/o reason, in normal circumstances.

So u may wonder, what the f**k am I talking about? Where am I getting this entry into and why do I think so much about such a case? Simple ~ the anime just awoken a few thoughts & feelings in me that are strong enough for me to try make a point. Not that many would be reading - and perhaps all that do, will disagree with me... but it will prove to be a thought for consideration, even if itz brushed aside initially. My main point... whenever u read about something, just think who the actual victims are.

Hmm, even in the news nowadayz. There are ppl being beaten up by another group of ppl. Ookay, granted that itz an act of violence. Most ppl who read the article (including my own mom) will symphatise with the victim, that he/she gets beaten up by a group of ppl. Did anyone consider, y is the so-called victim a target in the 1st place? Did he/she do anything that deserves such treatment? Most of the time, the answer will be yes... just that it ain't reported in the media, coz the "bad guys" will never get their chance to speak. Doesn't reflect well on the media or normal humans ehx?

Shady self-destructed @ 17:32

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Itz always the ppl who are different that are persecuted. That are viewed as "monsters of society". That are alienated and discriminated against. Why is that so? Just finished a tiny marathon watching of "Witch Hunter Robin". That is one anime that ain't just for normal entertainment I suppose. It contains strong themes that reflect the pathetic society we live in. The hunting of witches who supposedly 'abuse' their power, endangering the lives of normal humans. What the authorities in the anime fail to recognise is the reason y the witches harm the normal humans in the 1st place. Granted that there is the minority that do it for $$, power, fun... etc. but the majority are just pushed over the line of tolerance. So tell me, is it fair to be condemned for using a power u don't ask for in the 1st place, against those who push u past the edge? Itz just basic animal instinct. Even a normally docile animal attacks when cornered. Generally, ppl don't harm another for no apparent reason. Yesh, I do believe that there is a certain amount of darkness in a person's heart... that a normal person does tend to obtain a certain amount of pleasure from another person's pain. But I do believe that, all basic life forms do not take the lives of another or hurt another unless needed. Itz all about self-protection or in order to protect something that is important enough. Violence ain't committed w/o reason, in normal circumstances.

So u may wonder, what the f**k am I talking about? Where am I getting this entry into and why do I think so much about such a case? Simple ~ the anime just awoken a few thoughts & feelings in me that are strong enough for me to try make a point. Not that many would be reading - and perhaps all that do, will disagree with me... but it will prove to be a thought for consideration, even if itz brushed aside initially. My main point... whenever u read about something, just think who the actual victims are.

Hmm, even in the news nowadayz. There are ppl being beaten up by another group of ppl. Ookay, granted that itz an act of violence. Most ppl who read the article (including my own mom) will symphatise with the victim, that he/she gets beaten up by a group of ppl. Did anyone consider, y is the so-called victim a target in the 1st place? Did he/she do anything that deserves such treatment? Most of the time, the answer will be yes... just that it ain't reported in the media, coz the "bad guys" will never get their chance to speak. Doesn't reflect well on the media or normal humans ehx?

Shady self-destructed @ 17:32

Told Eric about my intention to resign liaox... apparently all I need to do is hand in a resignation letter and I just need 3 dayz notification. Salary will be given till Wed. Hmm... easier than I thought I guess. I left wrk early today. Just didn't feel too well. Anyway, thatz that... am outta there for good and now I gotta see how long will I take to find another job. *sigh* When things are going down, everything goes down. Once again, someone is back to his ol' bad habit. Making mi wait for a phone call -.-" Itz always about someone else isn't it? Everyone in the world is more impt than me. /me shrugx. I wonder y u would keep a promise made to another person but not keep a promise made to me. Went in JB w/o me just to collect another person's bike. Fine. Asked u to gimme a call once u reach back to sg... apparently u are stuck in a jam at customs. Then u'll be off to help the person paint his house. I just wonder, why can't u spend ur off dayz with me instead with someone else? F**k it manx. We'll see how long u'll be "stuck in the jam".

Shady self-destructed @ 15:10

Saturday, January 22, 2005

I skipped wrk once again. Took "urgent leave" with not much of an excuse to back me up actually. *sigh* At this rate, think it'll be just a matter of time that they terminate me -.-" Perhaps I should learn to tender resignations instead of waiting for terminations ehx? Guess when Ben comes back will have a short talk with him regarding this. I just can't stay on much longer... especially the $$ is a demoralising factor. Need something more enticing & interesting. Itz gonna be a pain getting into a new place, getting to know the colleagues all over again... etc., but I guess it beats gritting my teeth and wrking for so little moolah. Thatz it, will start flipping the papers later.

Shady self-destructed @ 12:41

Friday, January 21, 2005

Yet another boring weekend ahead of me. Hmm at least I managed to catch a couple of movies the past week. Watched "My Brother"... that Korean film... well the only mistake I made was that, I caught the midnite session -.-" Yeah, it was good, but the pace is pretty slow & it ain't something that'll keep u up thru tha nite. Managed to stay awake throughout by some miracle though there were tiring parts. *grinx* Beats "Elektra" I shall say. lolx. Yesh yesh, Elektra is a more 'stay awake' film but most of it is err... nonsensical. Somewhat like an action-comedy I shall say - though I kinda wonder if itz meant to be funny in tha 1st place. The bad guys just look... ahem... ridiculous, borderline retarded I shall say. Plus, they die too easy. Most of them are like err I hit-ko? /me shrugx. What can one expect from a "Daredevil" spin-off huh? DD wasn't even that good (with exception that Ben Affleck is eye candy if u aren't too choosy). Hmmm what else did I catch... yeah "Meet The Fockers". Thatz the best one outta the 3 I caught lately I shall say. Granted that the jokes were recycled from the previous movie "Meet the Parents", itz entertaining nonetheless... and there's no way a person can laugh if they didn't watch part I. Gahhh, now what am I hoping for is the last episode of the Star Wars Trilogy. muahahahahaha, Darth Vader!!~! Not that I am a huge Star Wars fan... I just think it would be one of the better movies this year >.< style="font-style: italic;">less than what a part-timer is getting. *nod nod* and I am supposed to be the trainee supervisor. One that has to be a barista, do cashiering and even wash the f**king dishes if itz busy. u tell me manx... wth is that? Jacky is saying that he has a few jobs in mind for me, but he hath yet to tell mi about it. Arrgghhh forgeddit. Think I should start depending on myself more, and less on others -.-"

The ROM date is slightly more than a mth away. Why am I still feeling so undecided? Itz been calm for the past 2 dayz... but before that, we were quarelling every single day. I dunno manx, though I am pretty determined to make it wrk out, am still having my doubts. *sigh* That shouldn't be the case now that the engagement date is drawing so near huh? Like what ellone said, a marriage should be a blissful matter... I dunno if mine will end up this way. I really hope that it will be... or at least that things will be good once we move into the flat. Just that, there'll be more stressful times ahead & I don't knoe how are we gonna handle tat. I just hope that no matter what, he'll be there for me... like he said he would be. Thing is... he has a tendancy not to keep his promises. Zzz. Now I wonder what am I gonna do for tha rest of the nite.

Shady self-destructed @ 23:42

Sunday, January 16, 2005

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
it's not easy to be me

"Superman" - Five For Fighting

Well... I am no superhero. Not even a normal hero I shall say, but the lyrics do speak volumes about how I feel rite now. After all that hath taken place the past few dayz... itz been stressful. On top of all that, my physical condition ain't exactly at 100%, making it all the more difficult. *sigh* There are things that I can't even blog about I guess. The past few dayz I have ppl around me telling me, that the way I am behaving just ain't me... that I shouldn't be someone so weak, someone so... so... vulnerable. I guess they just don't understand. They don't know how I am deep down inside and they judge frm what they see on the surface. I know, on the surface I may seem to be someone who can't be broken easily. Not many ppl do know that, beneath it all, I am alredi broken. I've broken once and I never healed fully. Itz just that lately the wounds are being torn up all over again and it doth hurt when it bleeds. I guess, I do have the right to feel the way I do. I have the right, like anyone else, to just quit putting on a brave front all the time... to stop pretending that everything's alright when it ain't. Itz such a sad thing. In current society, weakness is something that shouldn't be shown. Not even to the person closest to you. For humans are basically evil. They exploit. They take pleasure from another person's misery. They compare. When they don't like what they see, they try to ruin it. Which reminds me... I should really consider about the ppl I allow around me. Apparently, not everyone is a worth enough to be a friend. Just remember, to everything, there are 2 sides. If you choose just to look at one and give advice based on that, let me tell you child, you are so f**ked. Friends are always more dangerous than enemies, coz when they do betray you, it hurts like hell. I just wonder, what do they stand to gain from all that backstabbing? Telling someone something negative about another person, and then telling the other person something negative about the someone. What sick brain dwells beneath the actions of one so low?

One thing I know for sure though. Fuck you. All of you. You can all go to Hell for all I care... just remember to pray that you don't see me there, friend.

Shady self-destructed @ 03:58

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Know what? I don't even have the energy to blog as frequent as I used to anymore. Everything is such a drain... especially the relationship. Itz having too huge and impact on my life and itz affecting all other areas - social, work... etc. I am f**king tired. If you wanna play... bring it on. If this is all just a game, know that I don't play to win. I play to destroy. Just don't blame me when you find out how ruthless I can get and how much I can f**k with your mind... giving you hope & taking everything all away in an instant. Since thatz what you've been doing to me all these while, since everything you say are meaningless... just wait and see, my dear. Don't get me wrong. Itz not that I don't love you, but didn't you ever hear of the line - "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned?". I've put up with you long enuff and my patience just snapped. Itz fine if you wanna push everything to me... I like challenges like that. Itz fine if you wanna do the hot-and-cold thingy over and over again, sooner or later I'll be immune. Am building up my defences. You betta hope that you break me before I get to you. For now, I'm going for a long overdue swim. One mistake you made - u underestimated me.

Shady self-destructed @ 16:16

Friday, January 07, 2005

This morning hath been one of frustraion, with part of it carried over from the previous night. Let me start relating frm the nite before. Smackdown on Ch 22 was delayed - instead of starting @ 10pm, it was scheduled to begin at midnite. Took a nap, intending to wake up to watch it. Ben promised to watch it with me - told me to wake him up no matter what. I woke up. I had to watch it alone eventually. When I tried waking him, he just gave me a black face & spoke in a highly irritated tone of voice. So much for promises huh? I wonderhow much more of this mental abuse I can take, when promises are made & not kept. The same thing happened the nxt morning. Last nite I asked him to set his own alarm and wake up for wrk, so I'll leave by myself early in tha morn. He said that he would wake and send mi to wrk instead. Well that part of the bargain he kept but he did it so unwillingly that I'd rather he didn't do it at all.

At wrkplace, he just went ot lay his head on the table and slept. Woke up him, had a short talk - whereby he complained that in future if I wrk the day shift, he'll go home to sleep instead. Naturally I complained. Coz of that happens, we'll hardly have time with each other anymore - not that we are spending much quality time now together, that is. Eventually compromised that he'll still stay over but I gotta go to wrk by my own tha nxt day. That was what I had suggested in the beginning -.-" why the fuck doesn't he listen to my suggestions in tha 1st place? If he did, much of this negative feelings could have been avoided and things would be much easier. All this is leaving my brain pretty much drained. To the extent that my work is suffering in the progress. He is just way to arrogant to listen... to even consider anything anyone else suggests. All the time, the just view me as "below" him, if u get what I mean. Thatz pretty much pissing me off & frankly, I believe I have a more rational mind than him. He just doesn't see things frm both points of view. I see... but there are times that I reject the other side of the coin. *grinx* Not perfect but at least I do see and I don't blame the other for acting the way he/she does. To be fair... yesh, he is tired. But if he knoes that he's gonna be tired, why in the world did he promise in the 1st place? I ain't pissed over the fact that he was grouchy & all. I was pissed over the fact that promises were made, only to be broken later.

If all that shit aint' enuff, he had to once agian bring up the matter of my bike, saying that I should sell it since it's filled with problems & since I can't handle it anyway. The last thing I need so early in tha morn is someone dumping cold water on me. Can you undrestand how it feels? hen a person who is so important to you keepts putting you down whatever you do, instead of offering encouragement & support when things don't go as planned? When I talk about my wrk related problems, he just brushes it off and thinks that I am just kicking up a big fuss about it. Itz like... all I want at times is merely a listening ear, someone to tell me that things are gonna be alright in the end. Not someone who simply discounts all that I say and not offer any suggestions. I should really review all that goes on in my life, now that I have the time. Its getting too tough to bear & I can't really imagine putting up with this say.... for the nxt 30 years, assuming that I do manage to live that long. I think that my patience hath been immaculate so far but I feel that it's gonna break anytime. I know I've said this many times. So many times that a person reading my blog is sick of reading it & the person typing it, yours truly, is sick of typing it over and over again. Everytime when I think that things are getting better, it'll just return to square one and fuck up all over again. *sigh* I wonder why do I have so much mental ability to tolerate such shit. If I could just let go... if only I can bring myself to listen to my brain & the advice of almost everyone ard me, instead of being stubborn n listening to my heart. Thing is... I also can't stand the idea of not knowing what might have been if I just quit now... after we've come so far. But if I stay and go thru' all of this just coz of the house & all, how much more crap will i get myself into? Such decisions are a bitch to make.

As for wrk, initially I was happy wrking where I was. Till I realised that negative things about the company doesn't change, even though it's been weeks. Feedback was given but no action was taken. There is still no standard operation procedure, no benchmark set. Plus communication is still fucked, even with the communications journal. Furthermore, there are more responsiblities being pushed on me w/o and increase of the pay. Can you imagine that I don't get paid ot even if I stay back say 1/2hr coz the nxt supervisor who is supposed to take over my shift hath yet to turn up? All these minutes... after being added up amounts to quite alot. I know itz give & take. I'm willing to give & take if I am being paid enuff in the 1st place. F**k it manx. It seems just too difficult to find a job I like. The nxt job I'm gonna take, I'll go for the $$ instead. At least there'll be one motivation factor.

Shady self-destructed @ 09:52

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

My cough & flu is still not well... Ben hasn't recovered either. I wonder why is the recovery period this long. I hate it when I am sick. Itz difficult to speak & occasionally the ears get blocked, making it difficult to hear another person talk either. The worst thing is when Ben calls the fone at my wrkplace, using his wrkplace fone. 1stly, his fone is alredi soft. 2ndly the traffic ard my wrkplace + the radio + the additional sounds all make it even more difficult. Itz a strain to my ears manx, whenever he calls. Am still hoping that he'll SMS me more though. Anyway, Ben finally proposed to me in public. lolx. It happened on Sunday, outside Cineleisure ^-^ it seems like finally he does have the heart to do something that'll make me smile. Hmm itz gonna be a trying period if we end up living together. Our ROM date is on the 24th of February 2004. Though I've accepted the proposal & I'm pretty glad that something is gonna happen... deep down inside I still feel kinda undecided. *shrugx* One thing is true though, no 2 ppl are exactly alike & no 2 ppl can get along perfect. I just hope that no matter what, tolerance is enuff to see tha both of us thru'. He promised that once we get our own place and move out, he'll quit his job @ Paradigm or wrk less. I hope he holds true to his words.

Wrk-wise, things are getting pretty messed at my wrkplace. Apparently Jovan is now steady with another staff - Meiting & due to that, her wrk performance seem to have dropped somehow. Itz always this case, isn't it? The best workers are the ones who are swinging single or the ones who just break up with their other half. *grinx* They are the ones who will put all their energy into wrk and have a flexible enuff schedule to manipulate =P Plus Eric was speaking to me yesterday, he told mi about the bosses' decision to terminate Joell. I did tell him about the stuff I was unhappy about - the lack of overtime pay, the lack of backup staff if someone falls ill the last min & the lack of proper communication. Oh yeah, Muraly is driving me mad - the uber negative way. Can't he just shut the f**k up and quit arguing or complaning? Initially it was just Jovan & Joell who ain't too happy about him... I've tried to put up with him, but as time passes, I just realise that he is exactly what the rest mentioned!!~! Well, basically if there are no customers, I don't give a shit as to what u do... even if u sit down... so as long as u don't take a nap, I'm fine. But when there are customers around, I tell u not to sit, I tell u not to do ur stuff and face them instead, u argue with me. Wth?! Hmm Eric was mentioning that he might wanna terminate Muraly. Way to go!!~! I hope that comes thru. Anyway, am still hoping that I'll be able to get a pay rise sometime soon. Eric did say though, that if I want a pay rise, I gotta prove that I deserve one. *sigh* What a pain... the pay is below market rate in the 1st place. We are doing much more than we are being paid for -.-"

Hmm just happened to surf into Vampire Freaks.com. Quite and interesting site if you ask me. Though sometimes I wonder, why do ppl dress up like goths... etc. Or why do ppl bother to dress up in a certain way & all? Is it coz they are so devoid of self identity that they need to belong in some social group? Itz kinda ironic, don't u think? Speaking about those goths & all. They claim to be loners, rejects from society... etc etc and yet they hang out in groups who all have the same perception. Gah!!~! Hold it, I have nothing against goths or whatever... I just find it weird, thatz all.

Well, anyway, New Year Eve was good =) Finally met up with Loon & the rest after such a long time of not going out together. Dinner was kinda limited though. Dumb Jack's Place had a New Year's Eve menu & there wasn't much of a choice. But the steak was good all the same. After that, we just grabbed some beer frm Cheers & 7-11 and headed down to Marina Promenade where we just sat ard and slacked, playing Uno, drinking... etc. Midnite came and went soon enuff though. I dunno about last year but there wasn't much of a New Year mood this year. Not much celebrations going ard, frm what I notice. Prolly due to the tsunami shit that took place sometime ago. Frankly, who cares?? I don't know anyone who is involved in the disaster, and for sure I don't sympathise with those who lost their families. Call me hard-hearted if you wish, I just don't care. If I wanna care, I'd rather care about the innocent children who are dying everyday just coz they don't have enuff food or water. I would rather care about those who don't have a fair shot in life... those who never felt wat it was like to have warm food & a warm bed to sleep in. Why in the world would I give a shit about those tsunami victims? Itz a natural disaster. Ppl die in natural disasters. Period.

Shady self-destructed @ 09:49

.: ME :.

I am the Alpha, I am the Omega. I am a Monster without a name.

I don't know where I'm going, and you need not know where I've been. I don't know why I'm embarking on this journey and I don't know what exactly I'm searching for. I don't need guidance. I'll know it when I find it - I'll make something up if I don't. Perhaps then, I'll depart to the realms beyond.

Till then, sit back & enjoy the tales I bring to you from my reality.

For a more detailed description about yours truly, view my Friendster Page

Instead of links... A tracking/reminder list of sorts - for PS2 gaming. Motivation NOT to start a new game of b4 completing one of the same genre that hath alredi begun.
In Progress

Dark Cloud 2
Guitar Hero 1, 2 & 80s
Kingdom Hearts
Kingdom Hearts II
Wild Arms 3

In Queue

Ar tonelico: Melody of Elemia
Atelier Iris: Eternal Mana
Atelier Iris II: The Azoth of Destiny
Atelier Iris III: Grand Phantasm
Dark Cloud
Devil May Cry 3: Dante's Awakening
Disgaea: Hour of Darkness
Final Fantasy VII - Dirge of Cereberus
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2
Final Fantasy XII
Grandia III
Harvest Moon - A Wonderful Life
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (8x)
Leisure Suit Larry: Magna Cum Laude
Persona 3
Rogue Galaxy
Rule of Rose
Shadow Hearts: Covenant
Shadow Hearts: From The New World
Shining Force Neo
Silent Hill 3
Silent Hill 4: The Room
Soul Cradle [Jap]
Stella Deus: The Gate of Eternity
Suikoden IV
Suikoen V
Tales of the Abyss
Wild Arms Alter Code: F
Valkyrie Profile: Silmeria

To-Check-Out / To-Get List

Ar tonelico II [?]
Arc The Lad: End of Darkness
Arc The Lad: Twilight of the Spirits
Breath of Fire: Dragon Quarter
Digimon World Data Squad
Disgaea 2: Cursed Memories
Dragon Quest V: Tenkuu no Hanayome
Dragon Quest VIII: Journey of the Cursed King
Drakengard
Drakengard 2
Dual Hearts
Elvandia Story [?]
Ephemeral Fantasia
Eternal Ring
Evergrace
Forever Kingdom
Full Metal Alchemist and the Broken Angel
Full Metal Alchemist 2: Curse of the Crimson Elixir
Full Metal Alchemist 3: Kami no Tsugu Shojo
Growlanser Generations
Growlanser: Heritage of War [?]
Growlanser IV: Precarious World [?]
Jade Cocoon 2
Magic Pengel: The Quest for Color
Magna Carta: Tears of Blood
Makai Kingdom: Chronicles of the Sacred Tome
MS Saga: A New Dawn
Musashi Samurai Legend
Odin Sphere
Okage: Shadow King
Orphen: Scion of Sorcery
Radiata Stories
RPG Maker 2 [?]
RPG Maker 3 [?]
Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Summoner
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga 2
Shin Megami Tensei: Nocturne
Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 3 [?]
Shining Force Exa
Shining Wind [?]
Shining Tears
Star Ocean: Till the End of Time
Steambot Chronicles
Summoner
Summoner 2
Tales of Destiny [?]
Tales of Destiny II [?]
Tales of Legendia
Tales of Rebirth [?]
Tales of Symphonia [?]
The Lord of The Rings, The Third Age
Tsugunai: Atonement
Unlimited Saga
Ys: The Ark of Napishtim
Wild Arms 5 [?]
Xenosaga Episode 1: Der Wille zer Macht
Xenosaga Episode 2: Jenseits von Gut und Bose
Xenosaga Episode 3: Also Sprach Zarathustra
.hack//G.U. Vol.1: Rebirth
.hack//G.U. Vol.2: Reminicise
.hack//G.U. Vol.3: Redemption
.hack//Infection Part 1
.hack//Mutation Part 2
.hack//Outbreak Part 3
.hack//Quarantine Part 4

Completed Games

Grandia II
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (1x)
Legend of Legia II
Shadow Hearts
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Suikoden III

Trash Bin

7 Sins
Urbz: Sims in The City
Grandia XTreme

Too Many Games... Too Little Time...

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