Contradictory Ramblings Version 2.0

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else

I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

Fade to Black - Metallica

Contradictory Ramblings [Version 3.0]

"Walking around in circles... seeking a place to call my own"

Welcome to My Life

Monday, December 22, 2008

This is post 1,070. There will be no post 1,071.

Have decided to start a new blog. Contradictory Ramblings have been running since 2004 afterall. Time for some changes. Nah... a new blog doesn't mean a new life. It doesn't mean I'm starting things on a clean slate or whatever. Neither is it gonna be all cheery or positive. I am still who I am. So why the change? Good question. My answer? I just want to ^_^

I ain't gonna shut this down. Am just gonna leave this here. Itz more like... well, writing my diary entries in a new book.

And hence, my Life continues with Reflections.

Shady self-destructed @ 08:02

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Revenge.

Holding a grudge.

The desire to destroy everyone and everything around you.

Is that really wrong?

Seems that those who produced Jigoku Shoujo Futakomori seemed to think so. The season came to an end with the death of Enma Ai, who disobeyed the Lord of Hell and as a penalty was brought back to life to be killed by an angry mob. The mob made up of the very same people who accessed the Hotline to Hell for their own vengeance. As such, the situation @ the town came to a close. Ai & the spirits of those that she loved were released.

As the story goes, Ai was once a normal girl who was prosecuted by her village and eventually killed. In her rage, she destroyed the entire village and was doomed to work as the Hellgirl by the Lord of Hell who held the souls of those she loved ransom.

Kinda ridiculous don't u think? When the people who died are the ones @ fault in the 1st place. And from the way I see it, they got what's coming to them. Why should the innocent made to suffer be punished from extracting justice upon the wrong-doers who unleashed hell upon them?

"
The shadows of sin flicker and flutter.
A sorrowful destiny; a path of doubt.
The hater and the hated are two in one;
Two cracked mirrors reflecting each other.
"

Above is the English translation, done by Shinsen Fansubs, of the start of every episode.

Yeah granted that vengeance is a never-ending cycle. However... does that mean we shld just sit back and let everything go? Forgive the ones who did you wrong & forget the nasty deeds that they have done? Is vengeance really such a bad thing?

Come to think of it, even the old martial arts drama that I used to watch seemed to reflect that. The one seeking revenge is always portrayed as the bad guy. Then the good guys will simply mentioned that... when will revenge end... yadda yadda... those kinda shit. Of coz itz easy for the good guys to stay that. They weren't the ones who watched their loved one die in the hands of another.

Society is flawed.

If that's the common perception people adopt - or rather, if that's the kinda thought ppl are trying to promote.

The world is just fucked.

Hypocritical.

Me?

I believe in vengeance. I believe in vendetta. I don't believe in goodness & I don't believe in taking things done towards myself lying down. I don't believe in being nice to those who don't deserve it. In any case, feelings should be mutual. Actions should be reciprocal. An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. Nothing more, nothing less.

So... does that mean I should be condemned to Hell?

lol ~ if thatz the case, so be it. I wouldn't wanna be sent to Heaven along with all the others who aren't even true to themselves in the 1st place. Those who wear a mask. Those who claim that they bear no grudge.

To those who claim so, just one word for you: Bullshit.

Destruction isn't necessary a bad thing. Wanna argue? Well, tell me then, why did God cause the entire world, save for Noah & his ark, to be submerged in water? Why did God bring destruction upon the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah? Coz He is the the Creator and has the "right" to do so as he was saddened by how humans have turned out?

Hahahahaha... your God is nothing more than a tyrant, a dicator who wants things his very own way. Everything that is negative about humans, everything that is "wrong" came from Him. Don't blame the serpent for tempting Eve to eat the apple - its just as good as blaming the cigarette manufacturers for lung cancer. Temptation is always around - it's up to a person to succumb to it or look the other way. Eve was weak. She ate the damned fruit. Where did she inherit the weakness from? Well... God did make mankind in his own image, didn't He?

btw, sidenote: in the above 2 paragraphs, when I mention God, I refer to the God of Christian faith (in case morons have yet to notice).

/shrug

Well... whatever it is, it'll be pretty interesting should I have the power to destroy the world @ my very whim. I'll fill the planet with flames of hate, fill the night sky with the death cries of those who are caught in them.

Why?

Simple.

There is beauty in destruction afterall.

Shady self-destructed @ 12:57

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

*sigh* I never knew I could get this upset over a game.

"Nameless" downed Illidan last night for the 1st time. It should be a happy thing right? And no, am not upset coz I lost the T6 chest based on dkp. My rogue companion got it and itz as if I've gotten it myself. No biggie. Am just feeling totally fcked coz that was the last raid we did together as a guild. "Nameless" is no more. Well... at least no longer the way it is. A huge percentage of the main raid team left, and formed a new guild "Encore". So I guess... yeah in a sense "Nameless" is no more, coz it was the raid team that made the guild.

That was the last pic we ever took together.

I just feel like an asshole. Really. Coz I left to join "Encore" too. It just seems like a betrayal. The GM is someone I know irl. Being a former gm myself on Barthilas, I can imagine how he'd feel to see his guild shattered this way. The most shitty thing is, I am goddamned sure he was certain I'd stay and help him with reforming his guild. I didn't. I bailed. I wanted to stay, really. But I dun like the idea of raiding with strangers all over again. I dunno manz... either way I'll be branded an asshole.

When I didn't immediately leave to join "Encore", another guildie back from "Impact" days got mad - said that I went back on my word, that we'll be sticking together when "Impact" fell apart. Well... I did make that promise afterall, so I guess I don't blame him for being mad. But I don't think I shld be given that kinda pressure. I did try explaining y I didn't leave. He didn't accept it. /shrug. Even though I did leave eventually... am gonna re-evaluate my in-game friendships. Coz it does feel that he was trying to use my sense of loyalty against me, when he knows jolly well that by leaving "Nameless", I'll be going against my morales too. Not really someone I'd like as a friend, even if it's merely in-game. Shouldn't allow myself to be put under such kinda peer pressure any further.

So what actually made up my mind to leave?

It was what my fellow rogue asked. A simple yet effective question - Why am I staying?

My gaming objective is progression. I have to stay true to that objective. If I wanted merely a social guild, "Triple Moons" on Barthilas fits the bill just fine... it's a guild with no potential, no raiding future. But it's a guild where friendships are strong & where ppl actually like each other (or at least thatz the impression I get). That is a social guild. However, I ain't content to just remain in a guild as such. I want to see end-game content when WoTLK is released in a week's time. With "Encore", I see such potential. Am unsure if I'll be given a regular raid spot with my fellow rogue there, considering that many raids will be 10-man based in WoTLK and that doesn't allow 2x rogues @ the same time. But well... it's not as if my raid spots in "Nameless" are gonna be certain now that they are reforming.

Tbh, there are many things that "Nameless" GM does that I don't really approve of... but that's his style. It's just pretty self-centered but well... who isn't selfish @ the end of the day? Doesn't mean that "Encore"'s GM is much betta - I don't know that for sure. The only thing I know is that he's a better raid leader, and he doesn't make empty promises (well he hasn't made promises in the 1st place).

*sigh* All I can say is... my raiding future is uncertain on that realm. I just hope that in time, everything will work out. And I really hope, it doesn't end up with Mai ("Nameless" GM) & black hating me. Those 2 are peeps that I've known since my Barthilas days... and we did have wonderful times together. Bahhh kinda dread the phone call I know I'll get from Mai later today. Arrrgghhhh it just sux. Coz in my heart I feel as if I've betrayed him. He trusted that I'll stay to help him. I didn't. I deserted him. Wtf manz. Wtf did I just do =.=

I dunno. It just sux that the guild had to break apart this way. Especially after we downed Illidan. What an irony. Guess good things really don't last forever.

If this keeps up... I really might have to quit WoW to preserve my sanity.

Shady self-destructed @ 06:35

Thursday, October 30, 2008

3hrs+ and counting. Have gotten Ainarielle's fishing skill from 293 to 347 in the process. Chances are, itz gonna end up at 375 at the sick rate it's going. For those playing WoW, am sure u guys know how fcking long that takes. So what the fck am I doing? I'm fishing in the waterfall @ Ogrimmar (one of the enemy capitals, for non WoW players). And yes, Ainarielle is a Night Elf. Rogue nonetheless, but it was a pain getting to where I'm right now - especially after patch 3.0.2 changing the guards from lvl 70 to 75. There's even a lvl ?? (elite) walking around who can detect stealth. I got one-shotted by him like twice and yeah thatz coz I was naked save for Vanir's Right fist of Brutality on my main hand. Why the fck am I naked in the 1st place? Simple. Death to NPC = -10% durability = approx 4g repairs. Death is inevitable as the guards can see thru' my stealth easy due to their higher level & my lack of subtelty talents - I'm PvE raid spec.

Anyway... I shall not go into details about my toon's spec and gear. Laymen simply won't understand and that isn't the point of my current blog entry anyway. To summarize, I had a hard time getting in.

So what the fck am I doing? I'm fishing! Why fish there? Uhmm coz with the latest patch, Blizzard came out with an entire list of achivements that one can attain. One of them includes fishing up Old Crafty in Ogrimmar - which is a pain in the ass for Alliance players. Well... the Horde have their own curse having to fish up Ironjaw in Ironforge, the Dwarven city, an Alliance capital. Uhmm once again, I'm off-topic... bear with me on this as itz now 5:09am and I've been fishing since slightly before 2am.

351 fishing skill now.

Hmm... am tempted to just give up, hearth back to Shatt city, logout and go to bed. Itz just that the thought of coming in all over again another day kinda sickens me. Give up on that achievement altogether? yeah perhaps I should, but guess part of me is too stubborn to do so. I guess folks who know me irl can attest to that. My mule headedness had gotten me to do stuff that most lesser (and rational) ppl would have given up already. *sigh* I don't even know if that's a good trait or otherwise anymore.

That isn't the point of this post either.

This is supposed to be a ranting entry tbh. Just let me feel sorry for myself & lash out at Life once again, won't ya? Just let me curse my very existence and contradict myself a little to make it slightly easier to bear. I just don't fcking understand. Why is my luck so bad?

I had a fishing companion initially. A fellow rogue from the same guild. He's offline now, went to sleep after keep me company for like 1hr or so. He got his achivement on his 1st cast. How gay is that? Gay not coz he got it on his 1st try. Gay becoz I'm still there more than 3 fcking hours later and I haven't gotten it! Why the fck do I always have to try harder than anyone else? Why is it that luck doesn't smile upon me? WHY???

Itz the same thing with the Halloween event. There's this pet, the Sinister Squashling, that can be obtained from various means - defeating the headless horesman in Scarlet Monastry & outrolling your fellow party members, getting it from Trick or Treat @ the inn keepers, or as a reward from saving a town from burning down. The event ends this Sunday. I still haven't gotten the pet yet on Ainarielle. I've lost the rolls many times, even when just 1 other person wants it; I've never managed to put out a fire in town & I was unsuccessful getting it from a TnT package. *sigh* Why is my luck so bad?

Oh yeah, I've gotten the squashling yesterday off the headless horseman for Erulisse. Thatz only coz a guildie passed for me. FFS. Am just fcking sure that if he didn't pass, he would have won it instead. My rolls are epic. Hmm no.. not epic. Legendary. When an item drops and someone else wants it too, 95% of the time I lose the roll. When there's no one else in the party who needs the item... it simply doesn't drop at all. Take Aina's helm & Eru's tanking boots for example (not that I really care since WoTLK is coming out in a week & all gear will be replaced in the levelling process - but thatz NOT the point!!).

Guess am simply the type who just doesn't have much luck. Am destined to persevere and work harder than anyone else if I want something. Even if I were to work real hard, doesn't mean I'll get it. Call that pessimistic if you wish. I simply call it having a practical outlook based on what I've experienced thru' the years. Both in and out of game.

Just look @ my real life. Do I get what I want? No.

I wanted so badly for my marriage to work out. I tried all that I could. It ended up in shambles despite all that I've done. Result: Fail.

Social life. Well, I admit that I've been preoccupied with WoW of late, but I still try to maintain the friendships I have. Dropping occasional messages on MSN, asking folks out for dinner or to the movies... but what happens? Half the time, the messages go unanswered. Friends' aren't free to go out on the days I'm free & do not bother comprimising for a mutal free day (it's always on their time, not mine if they bother to suggest an alternative in the 1st place). People go watch movies w/o remembering to ask me along. *sigh*

Perhaps I shld just come to terms with the fact that people just simply don't like me coz I'm too critical, too cynical, too sarcastic, too demanding, too irrational... and whatever negative qualities that a human mind can fathom. Thatz probably why Life decides to throw all the shit my way too... hoping that I'll just give up & cease to exist. Come to think of it, it isn't such a bad idea afterall. End this life. Begin the nxt one on a clean slate & hopefully I won't be the perceived asshole I am right now and I won't be hated this much.

360 fishing now.

Well... this rant isn't going too well ehz? Itz just making my self esteem lower than it already is. Perhaps I should just not give a flying fck as to what others think about me. If they don't like me, they can jolly well fck off coz they aren't the only people in the world to begin with.

Time for some positive thoughts imo.

Perhaps I should count myself lucky that I got my squashling on Erulisse eventually - that I actually had a guildie who's nice enough to pass on it when it dropped. I should consider myself lucky that I had other guildies who are willing to go farm for it for me, even if it didn't drop that day. I should consider myself lucky that I had a fishing buddy for the 1st hour in Ogrimmar. I should consider myself lucky that there are still ppl irl who have yet to place me on their ignore list. And finally I should consider myself lucky that I've got an outlet to vent my frustrations and the ability to do so.

364 fishing. Fck it manz. I'll give up at 375 and continue before tonite's raid or another day.

Oh great... some fcked up horde decided to come and gank. Seriously, can't ppl just fcking leave me alone? Am already pissed enough as it is trying to get that fcking fish.

FCK LIFE.

Shady self-destructed @ 06:13

Thursday, October 23, 2008

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

Beautiful song by Abba. Heard it a long time ago and recently once again - on the movie Mamma Mia. Am darn glad I didn't catch that in the cinema or I might have broken down totally.

Haha yeah it just sounds like one of my lose-control moments again. Perhaps someday I'll steel myself to visit a shrink. Chances are, I'm suffering from depression or at least bipolar disorder. And I ain't kidding about it. But that'll be for another post... another day.

Right now. Ah well... u know, I had a dream once. I still have a dream. I just don't know it'll come true and hanging it to it just sounds so childish. Try as I might, I can't get rid of this little girl that dwells inside me. Biologically I've grown up. I'm already 27. In 3 years I'll be 30. My dream is fading. This may sound weird, coming from me... and it sounds totally ridiculous to the adult mind. But u know what? I've always dreamed that one day I'll meet my Prince Charming, get married & live happily ever after. It just sounds like a lovely thing to happen. And yeah it does sound unbelievable coming from someone the likes of me.

You know, some day, I'd really wish to be a mom.

/shrug

Shady self-destructed @ 07:21

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

"Just take it as an evening spent with friends" - thatz what my guildie, Aeld told me when I lamented that it was yet another Saturday night spent fused to the com. That was slightly more than 2 weeks ago, after a combined guild raid with to Black Temple (note: as it was before the nerf, we didn't even manage to get Naj'entus down).

Come to think of it, when was the last time I went out on a Sat night? I dunno manz... like 1 mth ago? What did I actually do when I went out that time too? omg I really can't remember much now. /shrug Time just passes me by so swiftly these days. Itz like the hours just go zoom and the days just meld into each other. Looking @ this on the bright side, at least WoTLK will be out soon. Patch 3.0.2 is already active along with the sweet talents. Exception: nerf pallies pls!!!

Anyway... yeah it might be a little troubling that I spend weekend after weekend cooped up in my room. Weekdays are the same. Am raiding hardcore with Ainarielle right now & my raid schedule is pretty much full - the only true off day being Tues when the server undergoes maintainence. Saturdays are mostly full days on Barthilas, now that the combined runs seem to happen more frequently & Sundays 1/2 Barth 1/2 Dread. Admittedly I do get a tad exhausted now and then... and give myself a couple of "off time" to play an alt on another server or to just do random stuff on my warrior.

At times I wonder: am I a hermit coz I'm gaming 24/7 or am I gaming 24/7 coz I'm a hermit. Lolx. I guess itz one deadly circle. Doesn't help that I don't have much of a social circle in the 1st place. Oh yeah I've got a few friends, a few maybe-friends and a handful or so of acquaintances... but virtually no activities outside the home. Makes me wonder even more about what I've thought before - that u hang out with ppl outta convenience more than anything else. Itz like, u tend to hang out more frequently with those who live near u, with those who wrk/study with you... etc. For those who are not, it takes "so much" effort that most just don't bother. Takes so much energy just to press a few buttons on the handphone's keypad u knoe? Especially for those who come in pairs - they just don't seem to have much energy to begin with!! Can't blame them. I might do the same if I were in their shoes since friendship is kinda unreliable in this day & age. Yet another nasty circle ehz? lmao.

Ah well ~ whatever, yeah?

Speaking of WoW... this raid nerf is getting a little on my nerves. The end-game raids are now so fcking easy that itz become a joke. Scrubs are getting their T6 pieces. Itz no longer exclusive for those who actually can play. eg. I've gotten my Slayer's gloves on my rogue... but itz no longer a big deal, coz Azgalor is now a little kitten. Even Mother has lost her edge. As I'm typing this... am waiting for my guildies to turn in their T6 shoulder tokens. We totally busted her ass with more than 1/2 the raid lying dead on the floor. Bleahhh wotlk is like 3 weeks away. I wonder if I'll get my shoulders b4 just stops raiding for level grinding. Not that it matters too much imo. Those stuff are gonna be pretty much useless @ lvl 80. Got my worries come wotlk, about getting parties for instances, but guess I'll have to face it when I get to it. Will be hard w/o friends on that server... but well, can always keep my fingers crossed.

As for . We haven't been having much luck with raids. After the nerf, the weekend was a server dead time. We didn't get to do SSC nor ZA - am pretty sure we can clear it with the nerf, such a shame that we can't do it the normal way though... too many scrubs. Well ~ anyhow I've gotten my 1st pc of T5 from loot reaver durng one of the combined guild runs into TK on pre-nerf mode. Yeah... those combined runs are pretty much a double edge sword. Got guildies actually preferring to turn up for those runs than our own organised ones. Bahh!! Time to clean up the roster come wotlk after intensive recruitment!! Itz gonna be a fresh start for the guild in a way... I just hope we'll make it this time, though tbh, 80% of my focus will be on my rogue (has more potential there).

Guess will just take thing as they come like I always do. None of my plans work out anyway.

Time to face the Illidari Council. I wonder if I'll get to meet Illidan this night.

Shady self-destructed @ 22:57

Monday, September 08, 2008

"1,063 Posts, last published on Jul 11, 2008"

Those words greeted me when I logged on.

Itz been a while it seems. Sep 8, 2008 today. Got curious & read the last 2 posts of mine. Rofl apparently things don't change much. I disappear for a bit, I get back to blogging again. I wonder why. I dun even know if anyone reads this blog anymore. Guess it doesn't matter. It seems like I'm writing for the sake of writing. I've always loved writing.

There was once in my Life, I did think I'd grow up to be a writer.

Here I am now. I'll be 27 @ the end of this year. All grown up I suppose. Bahhh fck, this seems to gonna be all that self-pity again. That stinks. I'm going on to 27.

What should "regular" people be doing at this point of their lives. Well... let me see.

I've got friends who have already tied the knot. Some, well, they have been together with their significant other for so goddamned long that it seems as if they are married anyway lol. I've got friends who are already parents themselves. Friends about to be parents.

Myself? I've been so fcking lazy with all that procrastination that I haven't even gotten my divorce legalised yet. Oh yeah sure, I've moved out. I have yet to unpack the boxes totally though. I met up with a long-time friend last week, and the question that was asked was - what the hell am I waiting for? Gah! To be frank? I dunno. Just wat the fck am I waiting for? It's not as if I'm still feeling all sentimental and somehow hoping that there's still a chance that the r/s is gonna work out. I'm not that pathetic. Oh yeah, it'll be great to have someone significant in my life... but know what? I just ain't that lucky.

The same friend too mentioned something. About the thought that there's someone for everyone out there. What did I think about that? Well ~ the little girl still in me somewhere clings on to the fairytale that yes, there IS someone out there for me. Someone among the sea of people. Someone whom I'm destined to be with. Someone that will somehow cross my path someday & I'd know it when it happens. You know, it'd be really sweet if that was true. The mere thought of love at 1st sight, then a happy ever after. I'd like to believe that. Really.

But Life just doesn't wrk that way, does it?

I ain't even gonna go into the part whereby... I don't have a career. Oh, wait a second. I don't even have a fcking job rite now, much less a career. I'm in all aspects, nth better than a bummer. *sigh* I just dun wanna think about that rite now.

Why am I writing? I don't know. I guess I'm writing coz I want to. I'm writing coz, I dunno... I'm writing coz I wanna make sense of how a movie can actually make me use up like 1 pkt of tissue paper. FFS. I'm so damn thankful that I didn't watch it in the cinema. I'd have made a perfect fool of myself imo. I dunno. It just pressed the sensitive button I suppose. Or perhaps, it's becoz of what I've experienced the past few years that made me soft like this. Lolx ~ now I'm just starting to sound like a total loser. But hell... I know what I feel. It just made me cry and smile @ the same time. Perhaps the reason y it did, is coz, it seems that it's telling me, there is still hope in this world. That things will get better somehow.

Besides... as mentioned near the end of the 2hr long film. There are many different kinds of love out there. And the part that makes the most sense - no one really gets through this Life alive.

Oh!! The title of the movie?

P.S. I Love You.

Shady self-destructed @ 03:59

.: ME :.

I am the Alpha, I am the Omega. I am a Monster without a name.

I don't know where I'm going, and you need not know where I've been. I don't know why I'm embarking on this journey and I don't know what exactly I'm searching for. I don't need guidance. I'll know it when I find it - I'll make something up if I don't. Perhaps then, I'll depart to the realms beyond.

Till then, sit back & enjoy the tales I bring to you from my reality.

For a more detailed description about yours truly, view my Friendster Page

Instead of links... A tracking/reminder list of sorts - for PS2 gaming. Motivation NOT to start a new game of b4 completing one of the same genre that hath alredi begun.
In Progress

Dark Cloud 2
Guitar Hero 1, 2 & 80s
Kingdom Hearts
Kingdom Hearts II
Wild Arms 3

In Queue

Ar tonelico: Melody of Elemia
Atelier Iris: Eternal Mana
Atelier Iris II: The Azoth of Destiny
Atelier Iris III: Grand Phantasm
Dark Cloud
Devil May Cry 3: Dante's Awakening
Disgaea: Hour of Darkness
Final Fantasy VII - Dirge of Cereberus
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2
Final Fantasy XII
Grandia III
Harvest Moon - A Wonderful Life
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (8x)
Leisure Suit Larry: Magna Cum Laude
Persona 3
Rogue Galaxy
Rule of Rose
Shadow Hearts: Covenant
Shadow Hearts: From The New World
Shining Force Neo
Silent Hill 3
Silent Hill 4: The Room
Soul Cradle [Jap]
Stella Deus: The Gate of Eternity
Suikoden IV
Suikoen V
Tales of the Abyss
Wild Arms Alter Code: F
Valkyrie Profile: Silmeria

To-Check-Out / To-Get List

Ar tonelico II [?]
Arc The Lad: End of Darkness
Arc The Lad: Twilight of the Spirits
Breath of Fire: Dragon Quarter
Digimon World Data Squad
Disgaea 2: Cursed Memories
Dragon Quest V: Tenkuu no Hanayome
Dragon Quest VIII: Journey of the Cursed King
Drakengard
Drakengard 2
Dual Hearts
Elvandia Story [?]
Ephemeral Fantasia
Eternal Ring
Evergrace
Forever Kingdom
Full Metal Alchemist and the Broken Angel
Full Metal Alchemist 2: Curse of the Crimson Elixir
Full Metal Alchemist 3: Kami no Tsugu Shojo
Growlanser Generations
Growlanser: Heritage of War [?]
Growlanser IV: Precarious World [?]
Jade Cocoon 2
Magic Pengel: The Quest for Color
Magna Carta: Tears of Blood
Makai Kingdom: Chronicles of the Sacred Tome
MS Saga: A New Dawn
Musashi Samurai Legend
Odin Sphere
Okage: Shadow King
Orphen: Scion of Sorcery
Radiata Stories
RPG Maker 2 [?]
RPG Maker 3 [?]
Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Summoner
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga 2
Shin Megami Tensei: Nocturne
Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 3 [?]
Shining Force Exa
Shining Wind [?]
Shining Tears
Star Ocean: Till the End of Time
Steambot Chronicles
Summoner
Summoner 2
Tales of Destiny [?]
Tales of Destiny II [?]
Tales of Legendia
Tales of Rebirth [?]
Tales of Symphonia [?]
The Lord of The Rings, The Third Age
Tsugunai: Atonement
Unlimited Saga
Ys: The Ark of Napishtim
Wild Arms 5 [?]
Xenosaga Episode 1: Der Wille zer Macht
Xenosaga Episode 2: Jenseits von Gut und Bose
Xenosaga Episode 3: Also Sprach Zarathustra
.hack//G.U. Vol.1: Rebirth
.hack//G.U. Vol.2: Reminicise
.hack//G.U. Vol.3: Redemption
.hack//Infection Part 1
.hack//Mutation Part 2
.hack//Outbreak Part 3
.hack//Quarantine Part 4

Completed Games

Grandia II
Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland (1x)
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Shadow Hearts
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Suikoden III

Trash Bin

7 Sins
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Grandia XTreme

Too Many Games... Too Little Time...

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